Tuesday, June 23, 2009

A Second Chance at a New Beginning

Apparently I won't be avoiding the cliche in my new and improving life.

Nearly a year ago I began this blog to try and chronicle the change I wished to see in my life. However, due to circumstances that coincide with a study abroad program, stressful schoolwork and minor life crises, I never posted past the introduction. My current circumstances find me in a very different place and once again I find myself in need of an outlet and an inspiration. It is the summer before my senior of college. I am jobless, boyfriend-less and in spiritual straits. In a month I will be moving back to Massachusetts to finish school with a degree in British Studies. I will be living off campus in a house with a few other girls, taking 18 credits a semester, paying rent, learning ballet and generally worrying about life after the tassel.

Yet even with all of those things, I know I can be happy. I just think I've forgotten how. Or at least have let my fear and insecurities take over. Yesterday I realised that this time I needed to actually make the commitment to the things that will help change this: exercise, healthy eating, good friends and the confidence I thought I lost.

I'm sure to anyone who reads this it won't make any sense but hopefully over time it will unfold a little more.

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